Is It Really Over?

I broke off the engagement with my fiance over the weekend.

We've been having problems lately bc he's not ready to get married right now, and I'm not a priority for him right now. It just came to a breaking point for me, and I just had to do it.

We've both been unhappy, and he's been neglectful of our relationship because he's been worried about finishing up his classes and focusing on his career. He's also become desensitized from the marines and all over the place emotionally. I tried to be supportive and stick by him because I loved him and was hoping things would change, but nothing did. We were just in two different places in our lives, and the timing was just totally wrong.

He's just not in the right mindset to get married right now. My goal was to get married and start a family, but his goal wasn't, so there was a lot of conflict. We were constantly butting heads and arguing, and I just felt like this was something I had to do for my own happiness. I didn't want to wait until we had kids later down the road which would make things a lot more complicated.

The situation is really horrible and heartbreaking, but I know it is for the best. He also understood where I was coming from and said it was unfair of him to make me keep waiting. He just ultimately wants me to be happy. Of course I still care about him. We were together for 4 years and have been through so much together. He was my best friend.

I just felt in my heart, this was the right thing to do, and I know there is someone out there who will truly love me and know how to love me. And he will actually be ready to get married and settle down. I'm ok, but I still feel so defeated.

If this is for the best, why is it so hard?

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